Posted by merpmerp on March 21, 2014, at 20:35:22
In reply to Re: Another step on the Lexapro journey » merpmerp, posted by phidippus on March 21, 2014, at 14:31:11
> > Thank you, Eric, for taking the time to read and formulate an in-depth reply.
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> I'm happy to help, I hate seeing you struggle with these medications.
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> >***I did the best I could. I felt powerless, trapped, miserable, muddled. I agree with you now, though.
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> Don't ever feel trapped with these medications. You have the power to stop them and try different ones.
***Thank you, I do still often feel that I have little to no choice. I just feel somehow like I'll "Get In Trouble" if I don't do exactly what the doctors say. Like be committed to a hospital. (This has never happened, but somehow I'm afraid of it.)
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> > > >Then the akathisia, diarrhea, intrusive thoughts started to return a couple of months after they switched my generic manufacturer in Oct 2013.
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> Can you describe what the akathisia was like. What types of intrusive thoughts did you have?
***The akathisia was extreme inner restlessness. I had to be moving, like I was trying to escape something. Had to be exercising, out on a walk, something, or my muscles would just twitch all the time uncontrollably. As for the thoughts: Violent ones. For example, I would look at a knife or scissors and an image would flash into my mind of me deliberately cutting myself. Over and over and over, dozens of times a day. I'd 'see' myself deliberately crashing my car while driving, hurting my pets while playing with them, hurting my boyfriend. It almost felt in my brain that it was a foregone conclusion that I would eventually 'snap' and do the violent things, so I might as well go ahead and just do them and get it over with. (I did not actually do anything violent, to me, animals, or anyone else.) It was terrifying. It felt like it wasn't coming from me - like I was possessed or something.
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> > ***To be honest TCA's kind of scare me.
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> I am convinced you would do better on a TCA. I am very sorry about your mother passing, but I think a TCA overdose is a rare thing. As long as you follow proper dosing guidelines you would be perfectly safe.
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> Also, there's Mirtazapine.
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> Eric
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Diagnosis: recurrent melancholic depression
Meds: Lexapro since Spt. 2009; currently on 2.5 mg plus occasional l-tyrosine.
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