Posted by poser938 on May 21, 2014, at 19:45:55
In reply to Re: make me beg for simething that'll harm me » poser938, posted by Beckett on May 21, 2014, at 19:14:10
What im experiencing isnt exactly depression or psychosis. i still appear pretty normal, that is until i attempt to have anything more than a "hi and bye" kind of relationship with anyone. i have to purposely keep my facial muscles from drooping, if i dont it lookz as if theyre being artificially pulled down. cant tolerate any kind of physical activity what so ever. And i constantly. feel like im just missing a big part of life. The parts of ljfe that matter. Ive been catatonic before, and i know if i dont get the help i need, then i will become catatonic again.
ive tried up to 30mgs of Adderall with no effect from it, and i think if Adderall were to benefit me in high doses, then it would be extremely short term. about a year ago i had tried Adderall after having not taken it in years, it wirked for maybe 30 minutes, then after that, nothing and nithing on continued dosing.
but, im considering driving to Vanderbilt Psychiatric Hospital and telling them i need help, and that if i dont get it then im going to go home and "harm myself." I asked my mom what she thought of this, and she said it might be a good idea to do that to get them to start treating me. but, can someone tell me what all consequences that might have? Im going to pretty damn difect about it.
and as Eric said, it looks like my situation isnt that serious in some ways. it doesnt bother me that he said that, but ive got to do what it takes to have this be taken seriously. i also go in front of the disability judge on July 11, and i neex him to take it seriously.
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