Posted by brutus009 on November 9, 2014, at 13:15:42
In reply to Re: temporal lobe dysfunction » brutus009, posted by Phillipa on November 9, 2014, at 8:37:02
Phillipa, I destroy things, smash glass objects, once I destroyed a CRT and destroyed and banged a lot of furniture which lasted for two days until I was medicated with risperidone again. I even threw a pair of iron scissors on the floor (very dangerous) and could have hurt someone, and proceeded to smash and demolish an electric iron, hurting myself in the process as the plug flew on my head and my head started bleeding. I really cannot control myself, though I know what it is that I'm doing.. Smashing objects can last for half-an-hour, even an hour, but no matter what, when not on drug, I can't stay calm for no amount of time, but always in a state of agitation and depression in my head, and always with hyperirritability, cannot stand even for my mother to talk to me, shout her down.
But for past few years, when not on drug, I've taken to shouting at people, I remember past conflicts, with neighbours for example, and I shout lots of curses and shout at them outside their home not to harass my mother. (Which they have in the past, but not a major issue at that particular time. Though I feel as if everyone is antagonistic towards me and my family and I can't do anything about it.) A week ago, even though I've been taking risperidone 3mg x2 constantly since some time, I raged with irritability all the time, and when I heard a vulgar song playing in the roadside (I live in a pagan country, so that's common. I myself believe in Christianity), I started shouting at people (no one /specifically/), but just standing there and shouting at people about how there gods were loose and they were vulgar and many curses about them, curses that are very vulgar and they usually use, in a fit of rage. And for the ten minutes that I shouted before I regained my mind, I almost didn't know what I was doing.
And when not medicated, I experience a severe personality change, I'm so angry that I even call family members using swear words.
That's the main problem, but I do have some other problems, that I wrote about before, (But I have lost access to that account). http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20140307/msgs/1062294.html
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