Posted by Lou Pilder on December 31, 2014, at 6:27:55
In reply to just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
> with the meds that i've been on in the past. you would think that would be better off now.
> i still have no friends... well my best friend that is a guy that my DH hates (because he's a guy) and i cant spend time with.
> My T, who keeps canceling on me. my pdoc who is barely available...ever.
>
> my DH is an a44hole, and some days i want out just becuase i cant deal with his borderline issues and anger.
>
> ive dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life and never want to do anything again.
>
> right now i am wishing someone would lock me up and i could just stay there and veg fro a year or so.
>
> i HATE being So tired but NOT being able to sleep. i HATE sleeping in, cuz i forget my meds and it messes up my whole day.
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> i still have STRONG urges to down ALL the 'extra' meds that i have in the cabinet.
> i want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left.
> i want to slice out my heart.
>
> i just.... and it goes on. i need to just sleep.
> -b2
>
> b2,
You wrote,[...(I've) dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life...I am wishing someone would lock me up and (I) could just stay there and veg (for) a year or so...I have a STRONG urge to down ALL the 'extra' meds that (I) have in the cabinet...(I) want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left...(I) want to slice out my heart...(I) need to just sleep...just need to talk...].
I agree that talking could be a life-line here. I am unsure as to what line of talking it could be that you would approve of as having dialog with members here. If you could post answers to the following, then I could respond accordingly.
True or False:
A. I want to talk about what drug(s) I should take for the condition that I am in, Lou
B. I want to talk about what the origin is that is inducing the feelings of seeing no purpose in life, Lou
C. I want to talk about finding a way out of the dread that is wanting for me to slice my heart out, Lou, that does not involve talking mind-altering drugs in collaboration with a psychiatrist/doctor
D. I do not want to talk with you, Lou, for the God that you give service and worship to, in my heart I do not believe in.
E. something else
Lou
poster:Lou Pilder
thread:1074628
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