Posted by alexandra_k on April 13, 2015, at 1:57:24
In reply to disability, posted by joe f on April 4, 2015, at 7:27:20
If I don't have external things then I can't seem to internally generate a routine. But, I've learned, I'm much happier with a routine.
E.g., if I don't have anything external then my sleep-wake cycle sort of reverses. So I'm up most of the night and sleeping most of the day. I think I sleep more than is actually good for me, but I get addicted to it, somehow, and feel so awfully tired when it is time to get up... I guess it induces a general depression.
I like studying part time because it gives me a compass. I would imagine that working part time could do the same thing. Something that I have to do - whether I feel like it or not. Strangely enough... The act of forcing myself to do something that I don't feel like doing... Actually makes me feel better / is good for me.
I'm currently studying full time. A demanding year, by anybodies account. I'm fairly surprised to find that I'm actually thriving on it. I mean... Early starts. Lots of little tasks... Very structured. Do this, then do that, then do the next thing. It isn't a lot of standing about (though there is a fair bit of that) it is mostly 'hurry up, move quickly, you should be near the end of the NEXT bit of that...' and I'm feeling like I'm thriving on it. Sort of borderline... At times... But it feels stimulating in a good way, yeah.
I think a large part of it is about finding your niche. Something that is manageable for you... Something that pushes your competency... But not too much so it is unmanageable... But something where you feel stimulated and feel like it is improving something about you, somehow. At least... That is fairly crucial for me. To feel productive and happy and alive...
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