Posted by Fiftylager1 on February 27, 2016, at 9:59:11
In reply to Re: Hey everyone.. Newby here » Fiftylager1, posted by SLS on February 27, 2016, at 9:24:35
I have tried lithium and Depakote. Lithium caused problems with my blood levels and heart and I was starting to not take it so much because I was so depressed. I gained weight and felt like a zombie on Depakote. I am currently on lamotrjfine and clonazepam. Not on ability anymore but so tempted to take it for a few days just to feel better. I have med phobia as well so startinc a new med terrifies me.i also can't afford these meds. Some days I feel like throwing them all in the garbage. I'm 38band have lived with this literally forever. I just have had it. Everyone e thinks I'm lazy,unmotivated, anti social and a head case. I've ruined so many relationships and think I'm on the way to ruining another. My kids live me and they are the only things that have kept me going but my bipolar has affected them too. I feel just hopeless. I want to hide in my room all the time. I'm broken financially but terrified to even look for a job and my knee is so messed I don't think I could find a job in this town. My ex is angry and feels like I live off his child support and he's right. My life is pathetic lol!
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