Posted by J Kelly on March 9, 2016, at 13:20:22
In reply to Still depressed on lamotrigine, posted by Fiftylager1 on March 9, 2016, at 10:00:25
Hi again :)
> I'm on 200 MG of lamotrigine and clonazepam for anxiety. I'm still experiencing some really bad lows. Yesterday I even wrote a goodbye note, just in case. I wanted to be cognizant while I wrote it. I pray I never have to use the note but my lows are pretty deep.
I know you are in a dark place right now but always remember your kids need you. Realizing that got me through some tough times. Its just not an option to abandon them.
>Some days are unbearable and others not quite so bad. I'm easily set off into tears and I just want to lay in my bed all day.
I have felt this way and if I'm being honest, I spend way too much time holed up in my bed. Its the depression.
>I am terrified of antidepressants. I've had many bad experiences on them. They've made me pretty med phobic. I've tried so many meds. Lithium does not help depression and it affected my blood cells and heart. Abilify made me hypo manic but then just pooped out. Depakote felt nothing and lost alot of hair and gained weight, Latuda no help and gained weight. I took seroquel many years ago.. Lasted about 2 days. I was so out of it and felt like a zombie but had an inner restlessness that was very uncomfortable. Resperidone caused extreme jaw clenching. I need something to address the depression and severe anxiety.
I wish I could help you here but I'm simply not qualified to make any suggestions.
>I barely leave the house now and look like I'm just lazy. I have terrible thoughts floating in my mind and am scared if I told anyone I'd end up in a psyche ward.
I constantly berate myself for being lazy. What I'm learning is that its not true, and I need to give myself a break. As do you.
>I am a single mom with 2 teens and its a really small town. Everyone would know. I see my psychiatrist on the 27th and I know he'll try to push the anti depressants on me. I do not do well on those. They make me want to hurt myself more. I've literally felt crazy on them. I'm terrified of gaining weight and losing my hair but I have to do something.
Its frustrating beyond belief. Many of us have been there.
>I'm scared I'm not going to make it to my kids graduation the way I've been feeling.
You will be there. Make a promise to yourself.
>My life is falling apart.. Again. I'm at the point of wondering if there is any fix. Anyone had some med combos that have worked. And I will be ignoring any Lou Comments.
You might want to check out a recent thread "magic pill". Some of us have listed what has worked for us in the past.
Please go see your pdoc immediately. Do you have a therapist? Maybe that would be helpful right now too. I just started and am already feeling a little better.
Take care of yourself,
Jade
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