Posted by sigismund on June 21, 2018, at 19:45:10
In reply to What can get me out of my head!, posted by Prefect on June 19, 2018, at 20:06:05
>I'm constantly stuck in some form of altered perception, or dissociative state, and I can't get out of my head to focus on what's in front of me...! It's like a constant state of catatonic hyper-arousal that's keeping me locked inside myself and unable to concentrate on what's outside my head and body. A chronic anxious daydream of horror.
That is very expressive. I know what you mean. It's not related to rumination?I think some psych drugs (benzos?) may make this worse, allowing for the fact that I don't really know what you mean. I spent years in a state like that. It made (for example) visiting the accountant really difficult. My vision would almost go double, I would sort of go into the sound of his words even though the meaning escaped me.
Oh! And interestingly, alcohol helped because it made my edges stronger. As did amphetamine. With that I could actually listen to what he said rather than the sound of him saying it. I wondered if at the bottom was some terrible loneliness and a desire to merge.
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