Posted by porkpiehat on December 18, 2018, at 21:57:57
In reply to Re: Were you apathetic and indifferent on SSRIs...?, posted by bleauberry on August 31, 2018, at 7:13:54
Oh boy, yes! Helped with the suicidal thinking and general anxiety but I could just lay in bed and miss appointments staring at the ceiling and not caring. Zoloft was the worse it helped more with my concentration but eventually I felt strangely detached in a terrible way.
I've been chasing an AD that would help with more, not less, emotional affect, and landed on MAOIs thinking they were a panacea. I'm realizing that the NE that gives some people energy makes me hyperfocused, zoned out, and very detached from loved ones. DA feels great for a while but adds to an almost psychotic feeling of detachment eventually, like I could watch the world burn and not care.
Of course I think it's more complicated than that because straight up wellbutrin makes me activated and nervous, but with a serotonergic gives me an awful tired and dissociated feeling. Same with nortriptyline, desipramine, and of course the MOAIs. Does anyone else have this phenomenon?
Things that DO make me feel more connected are the gabapentin/oxcarbamazepine kind or drugs, but the make me so friggin cloudy and stupid I can't take them. Oddly nothing makes me feel more "human" than the day after a night of drinking...brain fog, avoidance, ruminations, flattening, all gone until about dinnertime.
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