I too was very naive about the mental health system and life in general. Have you ever had blood tests to measure your nutrients? Made a world of a difference for me.
> When I first started psych meds, it was in 1994..the summer (when OJ drove his white jeep down the highway, with the 'funny' multi-parted, choreographed police 'chase'..ugghh). But, my family doc started me on 10mgs of amytriptaline and .5mg's of lorazepam 3x a day. This was after a year or so of major dark, suicidal thinking. I HONESTLY thought, the first med I would take would 'cure' me..and I didn't have a problem if I had to take it forever!
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> Well, here we are, almost 30 years later. I have been on max doses of most drugs...no go. All varieties. At first, I had illusions that these drugs would make me 100 percent stress free, that I would be 'normal' (like, sleep 8 hours a night...feel like Superman..lol)..boy, was I in for a surprise!! LOL. And this was waaaayy before every 1 in 3 was taking medication..hehh.
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> So, my 'stable self' never really became 'stable'. Heh. I am SOOO afraid of the outside world...oh boy.I have to pop about 6mg of clonazepam just to go out. No life, no love....I CLING to hope...I live alone in a basement 'cell'...my 51st birthday, tomorrow, and...crap....
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