Posted by SLS on December 31, 2021, at 20:06:27
In reply to Chronic Terminal Depression, posted by alchemy on December 30, 2021, at 21:35:28
Don't give up, especially after you already have.
There is nothing wrong with blind hope. That's what hope is. It isn't what you already know that will save you. It's what you don't know.
Uncertainty.
Uncertainty is your friend. With all of the uncertainty that you recognize as being the state of the art in biological psychiatry, you can no more guarantee that you won't get well than that you will.
Alchemy, I really did listen to you. There is very little in your words that I didn't see in mine year after year.
Perhaps better said:
Suicide is permanent. Your suffering might not be.
"I give myself permission to autoeuthanize myself. It is humane. I can do this any time I want. It is my decision and nobody else's."
"I choose not to do it today."
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Well, I guess you get the idea.
That's about all I can convey to you right now. I hope you see the similarity in our experiences and the choices that are available to us.
I hope for you a miracle in 2022. Finding the treatment that brings you remission will have you believing in miracles, even if you don't believe in them right now. Miracles are in the mind of the beholder.
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.
poster:SLS
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