Posted by octopusprime on December 5, 2004, at 0:33:30 [reposted on December 5, 2004, at 12:37:54 | original URL]
In reply to Anyone tried absinthe, peyote or mushrooms?, posted by PhoenixGirl on December 4, 2004, at 22:30:10
phoenixgirl:
i did mushrooms a lot for a while. let's say 2-3 times a week for a 4 month period five years ago. let's see what i can remember from this:
i was depressed at the time, brutally depressed. i reduced my course load that term and spent a lot of time in my room crying, playing hoyle's board games and card games, and listening to the cure.
but doing mushrooms was fun! lots of fun. an escape. a way to open up. a way to explore. a way to see the colours in the world again. a way to kick out the blues and tear out the pages with all the bad news. i was euphoric on mushrooms, they agreed with me, and i only had the following two problems:
* i would puke if i was drinking and doing mushrooms
* one time i thought i saw a giant lizard crawling out of the ceilingmany of my friends freaked out worse than i did on mushrooms.
but anyway, right around the end of the 4 month period when i finished taking mushrooms frequently was when i was first diagnosed with depression and when i first started taking an SSRI (prozac).
also keep in mind that this period of use coincided with my first big breakup with my boyfriend of 3.5 years (i was 20 at the time so it was a huge deal)
so it's not a clean sample by any stretch. i probably also smoked a lot of pot. it's hard to really remember the details because a lot of that period has disappeared into a drug-fogged haze of memory that's all jumbled together after the passage of time. i am convinced that my drug use had a kindling effect on my cyclothymia and i would not be struggling so much with these issues if i had stayed away from drugs. maybe i'm just guilting myself for self-medicating with what was available to me?
take the anecdote for what it's worth ($0.02 canadian)
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