Posted by Racer on January 12, 2005, at 12:24:05
My RD gave me a homework assignment I'm finding impossible, even before I've started: I have to write a letter explaining why I'm seeing her, what my goals are. Not only that, but she really wants me to write down "why I want to gain weight!" Hello? I *don't* want to gain weight? I'm feeling miserably fat and hideous? I want to lose the weight I have gained?
Anyway, without the sarcasm, this assignment really has me flummoxed, because I do know that I should gain weight, but all the things I can think of as benefits of gaining weight have already come. I'm thinking more clearly, I'm not hungry all the time, I'm much less obsessive, I can read more easily, I'm less distractable, I'm not feeling so driven and pushed all the time. But I'm also feeling hugely fat. Much more so. (Refeeding weight distribution -- all in my belly, although it's starting to hit my upper arms and thighs. You know, all the places I'm already self-conscious about...) So I can't come up with any reason that I want to continue gaining weight, and when you come right down to it, I really, really don't want to gain any more.
Has anyone ever faced this, and if so, have you got any advice?
poster:Racer
thread:441172
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