Posted by Augustina on February 5, 2005, at 19:20:41
In reply to Who are we without our Eating Disorders?, posted by Racer on February 5, 2005, at 13:50:44
Racer,
this is a very good question and something i often ask myself. For me, food and weight obsession is such a natural part of my life and if it wasn't there anymore, i'd probably feel empty and feel like my life was not complete. Though it is mentally exhausting to be constantly thinking of food (from the time i wake up til i go to sleep), this obsession has become my "friend". Sounds strange but right now, that's how it is and that's something i'm working on in therapy.
I think underneath this "layer" of an ED there is a lonely, scared little girl who was teased and criticized for being fat. Even though i'm no longer overweight, the scars are still there and
now at age 37 i do all i can to prevent such criticism from happening again to me...this takes its form in my ED--diet obsession, compulsive exercise, former use of laxatives, etc...A.
poster:Augustina
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