Posted by alexdra on February 27, 2005, at 17:20:11
In reply to What purpose does your ED serve for you?, posted by Racer on February 26, 2005, at 12:28:10
I went through 9 months of very bad bulimia...For the first time at age 32.
This happened after a fiance left me and I realize that my ED was a way to cover up all my emotions from that.
It really made me look at the fact that I was stuffing all my feelings away by bingeing and then purging due to the feelings of guilt.Hard to put it all into words but the ED was avoidance. Once I dealt with my feelings head on and accept it when I feel down, I was able to stop the binges and the purging.
One person on another board said they liked to think of their ED as their "friend" b/c it brought to light all the problems they had that needed to be dealt with.
I now know exactly what she meant.I couldn't get therapy b/c I got laid off in November and noticed that once I was out of that miserable job, I was more able to deal with my feelings.
Self-help books have been helping me. I am not totally cured but now will only b/p once every 2 weeks which is SO much better than it was.
I hope to be completely rid of this soon and don't ever, ever want to binge again!!Best of luck to everybody fighting an ED.
Recovery takes a ton of effort but you are more than worth it!
poster:alexdra
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