Posted by malthus on May 9, 2005, at 18:49:03
I saw this French film "Look at Me" with a friend yesterday and have found myself thinking about it all day today. It triggered some childhood memories about my father and the way he misused power in our relationship by making comments about which kinds of clothes I should wear (like Bermuda shorts because I didn't have the legs for the shorter variety). While I have forgiven my father (mostly)I sadly recognized the monstrous ego and arrogant attitudes the father in the movie displayed in my father. I also related with the female lead Lolita because she has self esteem issues and like her, I obsess about being overweight. Another parallel is that my father had a girlfriend (thin) half his age when I was an overweight teenager and in the movie Lolita's father also has a waif-like partner half his age.
I suppose I am feeling very sorry for myself tonight as I struggle with the medication Zyprexa. It gives me a huge appetite so I overeat and that has created 50 extra pounds. It does however keep the hounds of anxiety at bay in the wee morning hours when everything seems so hopeless...
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