Posted by Racer on September 12, 2005, at 23:10:37
I've been having a lot of trouble lately, which I won't bore everyone with. Lately, eating seems like too much trouble, and there's nothing I especially want to eat.
Last night, I knew what I wanted, we had it -- as far as I knew then -- but my husband had a bit of a tantrum at me for not telling him sooner, so I didn't have it and we ate what he wanted.
Tonight I didn't really want it, but decided it was better than the alternative, which I am feeling sick just thinking about. I went to the freezer, only to find that my husband has struck again: apparently he decided some time back that there wasn't enough room for it, and threw it away.
So I'm not going to bother with dinner. There's nothing I want, anyway, and I can't be bothered to choke down what there is.
But I feel so much as though there's no reason to keep trying, as though things just stay the same or get worse, as though there's no real hope that things will get better, and very much as though my husband is rather ambivalent about me recovering to any great degree.
And then again, it feels pretty dratted good not to bother eating.
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