Posted by ElaineM on November 22, 2006, at 21:47:23
In reply to Re: Anyone scared when losing weight? » ElaineM, posted by adrift on November 21, 2006, at 20:16:47
>>>>>I think the fear even though it freaks you out, might also help keep you healthy.
THat's exactly what's happening now. Usually I'm terrified of people, and I don't often leave my place. For a year, I've only gone to see T, and lecture (but very rarely) and LadyDoc from school. But now that I've graduated there's only T. My BDD has always kept me hiding at home though - it, and anxiety, have been with me much longer than the ED. I feel like my teenage years didn't exist.
But fear and desperation are extrordinary motivators. Like dynamite. Those two feelings have me going to new places and calling numbers like I never have in my life. I just wish something would come of all my new effort. Cause each time help doesn't come, or wait lists are long, the desperation gets so overwhelming. I feel I'm almost at a point of complete shutdown. I really can't deal with all this pain and impairment much longer.
Thanks for the encouragement. I hate feeling trapped in my garbage body AND alone. Helps that others can understand.
Blove EL
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