Posted by Racer on August 23, 2007, at 11:25:44
I gained some weight to try to have a baby. Now, I can't have a baby, and I'm left fat. I can't stand being in my body like this, and yet -- I still eat. I can't stand it, and I promise myself I'll eat less next time, but then I still eat much more than I want to. I can't seem to control myself.
I hate it so much. And I feel so weak, such a failure, and so hideous. I even told my pdoc the other day that that I wouldn't be trying anything else until the weight came off. Some of the weight is from Prozac, which I stopped in part because of it. I hate this. And I need to do housework, which I'm not doing, and I hate how much I'm not getting done, I'm ashamed of myself for it all.
I guess I really am a pathetic failure.
I don't know what I want. I guess I just wanted to express it.
poster:Racer
thread:778028
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