Posted by Lindenblüte on September 19, 2006, at 9:18:35
I'm still getting used to my haircut. It's been almost 2 weeks since getting 7+ inches chopped off.
I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, and I look- more confident. more stylish. more...? Who is that person?
And then I look harder, and it's me. Or?
I'm glad I got it cut. I'm just not not always comfortable with the consequences to my self image. Sometimes makes me look more professional & put-together than I feel. Makes me look more trendy and stylish than I feel. Makes me look more beautiful than I feel. I never feel beautiful, but I have a few lovely features. I guess.
I'm just not comfortable seeing that glimpse of a passerby in my mirror and then realizing that it's me, silhouetted from a 3/4 profile perspective. I wish I always will have a hoodie to hide in.
Will I ever be comfortable with me? The days when I look like I feel are okay (as long as I look great!) the days when I look and feel like crap- problem: because I feel pressure to look more pulled-together and decent to go off to work or to the grocery or whatever. The days when I look better than I feel catch me off guard. I feel like an actress. Fake. Poser. The days when I look worse than I feel. Well, that's okay, as long as I look presentable. I can just carry my glow around inside of me, and I don't care what they think of my pimple or mismatched outfit.
hmm
poster:Lindenblüte
thread:687368
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