Posted by DannaB on February 19, 2007, at 21:55:27
First off, I am very sensitive. Second, I am currently depressed. However, I don't think my perceptions are TOO far off. I just feel that people don't really like me all that much. I guess I'm worried and depressed a lot. I hide it pretty well, but when I'm feeling bad about myself it's hard to be the life of the party.
Anyway, I feel that I'm always rejected by others. It's hard for me to make friends and hard to keep the friendship going. For example, I have a best friend who I've known for more than half of my life. Lately, she doens't return many of my calls. I know she's "super busy" at work, but even so...I know she makes time for guys she's talking to, but not me, her old friend...then there's my friend from college. (Sadly, the ONLY friend I have from my college days, when I was deeply depressed.) We only talk every few (3-4) months, and she too doesn't really return my calls. Also, she visited my city one time, and happened to be doing something on the very STREET where I was working at the time and didn't call me to get together. What type of friend is that?
Why is it so hard to make and keep friendships? Why do people grow away from each other? I feel that when I was on antidepressants (I can't be on them due to side effects) I had closer friendships in my life.
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