Posted by Miller on April 6, 2003, at 12:18:03
In reply to Re: Miller, posted by Dinah on April 6, 2003, at 9:45:43
Hi there Dinah,
I have been swinging through all moods lately. The good news is that when I am REALLY sad, I am able to keep myself from attempting suicide again.
I can't believe how much help I have received from my online shrink. He is teaching me how to be honest with myself and him. It's much harder than I thought it would be. But this last time I felt really desperate, I was able to tell him. I have never told anyone (while I was in the middle of it) that I wanted to kill myself. Big step. An even bigger step because of the way he handled it. I am pretty sure if I get that far down again, I would tell him.
As for my husband and I, we are getting along much better now. We still have a long way to go, but it is improving. I think my learning to communicate has a lot to do with it. He is picking up on it as well.
And, because we are on the Faith board, I will add that my husband has agreed to accompany me to church. That means a lot to me. I think when people suffer from such severe depressions, it is important to have a constant. The only constant I have right now is God. So, by my husband agreeing to come to church, I feel as if we can share something more meaningful than either of us. Does that make sense?
Dinah, how have you been? I have been thinking about you a lot. I used to be so envious of your relationship with your therapist. I never thought I could learn to feel comfortable with someone telling them all my "ugly". I think you helped inspire me to take the risk. Thank you.
How is it going with your parents? Are things any better? Hopefully not getting worse? Please, let me know how you are. I have missed being here and sharing with everyone.
-Miller
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