Posted by PeggyY on March 12, 2004, at 15:14:25
In reply to Christianity and Depression, posted by Sent4 on March 12, 2004, at 7:41:27
Dear Sent4:
I can SO understand everthing you are feeling. I was diagnosed as Bi-polar several years ago. However, before that I experienced a lot of mood swings. I couldn't understand why the depression would just sweep over me and I would sob and sob. It went on for so long starting when I was a young teenager that I began to think that these feelings were somehow a punishment from God for things I had done wrong. My illness caused me to question my faith.
I grew up in a pentecostal environment. IF you weren't healed then you weren't doing something right. That was also the era that I heard preachers say that those wordly psychiatrist and psychologists were evil and not of God. If you had emottional issues you were supposed to bring it to God only. It was considered weak or even sinful to go to a psychiatrist. Thank God I have be delivered from that guilt.
I felt guilty for a long time taking medication because I thought I should be better. It took me a long time to accept the diagnoses I was given. I constantly questioned whether it was really real or not.
We don't question whether a diabetic needs his medication, but we do question our chemical imbalance needing medication. I had to accept that I had an illness that needed treatment.
I'm glad you posted here, and it was probably a God Thing that you broke down in your doctors office.
Good luck to you!
Because He Lives,
Peggy
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