Posted by SLS on February 21, 2005, at 17:17:59
In reply to Does anyone get psychotically enraged at god ??, posted by linkadge on February 21, 2005, at 13:23:57
Hi Linkadge.
> I go through these phases of what can be discribed as nothing less than psychotic rage, at god.
Why would you characterize your rage as being psychotic? I know that it is intense, but not necessarily psychotic. It seems you have a realistic sense that you are suffering, and recognize to whom or what you would like to assign blame. You do not seem to require reality testing.
> It is the most intense anger that I have ever experienced. An anger that I have never been able to direct at anyone in specific.
> I hit a wall. I know god exists.How do you know that God exists?
> I know he is there right now. And I also know that he doesn't bother to lift a damn finger to help any one of us here suffering on earth.
You are experiencing a very common need to reconcile the allowance of pain and suffering by a supposedly all loving god. You might need quite a bit of time and speak to quite a few people and read quite a few books before you find your way to be at peace with the way things SEEM to be without being afforded the luxury of definitive evidence.
> I just don't know what to think. I mean what the hell? Is he sitting up there laughing? Why in hell could not an all powerfull god just do something for a change to make it easier for us to live?
You are in the right place to have some of your questions addressed by others. You might not find the answers you are looking for, but it is important for you to know that you are not the only one asking these questions. If you feel unable to keep a completely open mind at this point, that's OK. Try to keep an open heart, though.
> All the bullcrap answers that a pastor gives me just aren't cutting it anymore.
I would be very interested to know what the pastor had to say. Can you offer some examples?
> If I had half a mind, I say that god doesn't exist,
That's why God gave you two halves to work with. :-)
> but my temporal lobes are too active for that right now.
What role do the temporal lobes play in spirituality or a belief in God.
- Scott
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