Posted by katia on August 12, 2004, at 2:01:10
In reply to Re: How are you? » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on August 11, 2004, at 20:08:10
Hi Barbara,
I'd love to see a picture of Merlin. Can you post it somehow?
> Tomorrow I'm going into the 'big city' and get Sarah's CD. Really looking forward to hearing it. I know what you mean about having a close and personal friendship broadcast over the cyberspace loudspeakers, so to speak. It's kinda fun and unusual. I wonder if anyone else ever stops by? We'll be in the Bay Area for Thanksgiving.**Yes, the East Bay to be exact. I know you visit Marin right? If I'm around for Thanksgiving, then we should definitely get together. I bought a house in Concord (near Walnut creek). But I work in a restaurant in Berkeley.
> You and Rock definitely have a soul connection, incredibly deep. Do you think he'll be coming back in this lifetime to you? It seems you both did an amazing healing for each other in a VERY short time together. I remember when he first came to you, around the time you moved into your new house. So many things seemed to change for you around then, major life things. At least you're able to feel things so deeply. Yeah, I know, thanks but no thanks. But it is a gift and the fact you can run in a field at night and feel that deep connection with life and love is something not everyone has the depth or strength of heart for.
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**Thanks for your words of encouragment. Yes, we will see each other again. Cathy said Rock does want me to get another dog sooner than later. One less than a year, one to rescue, but one breed that will have NO issues of aggression AT ALL. He wants me to be protected. He does love me very very much and is protecting over me. I will probably get a doggie within the year. It's funny because a stray cat has been hanging around my house. But I just can't open anything in me at the moment. I'm still filled with Rock and grieving.
>>, but the intensity or grieving hasn't become destabilizing. I feel like somethings been freed up inside me. For awhile I was terrified that when the time came for Merlin to finally cross over, I wouldn't be able to stand it. The anticipation of 'going crazy' was driving me crazy, but glad to report that I don't think that's happened. I'll let you know as soon as I hear 'Rock's Song'. Take care of you. Love, B.
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**That's so great that you aren't destabilized from Merlin's death. Like I said before, you seem very solid and grounded. Intouch with something greater.Sarah's CD is great. Very heartfelt and poetic. Enjoy. Talk with you soon?
blessings and joy-
Katia
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