Posted by Dinah on December 26, 2004, at 10:32:13
In reply to Re: I made it through. » Dinah, posted by mair on December 25, 2004, at 15:22:01
Hi Mair. The cemetary is about a half hour from my house. I'm going to try to stop by there this weekend. It's going to lose it's immediacy though when the casket is no longer visible. It certainly gave a confirmation of reality when I accidentally touched his hand, and saw his face. I had spent an hour or so with him after his death without feeling that sense of finality.
I'm really surprised at how many memories of the good times are coming up, and how few of the bad. That's why I feel funny about not remembering the bad. It's like a posthumous sainthood.
I'm sorry you're having trouble accessing those feelings. They have been very healing, I think.
Daddy had bought my son's Christmas present already and Mother brought it when she came for Christmas dinner. I wonder if he had actually planned to give them for a few Christmases and a few birthdays. He usually didn't give that much at once.
I do sort of wonder if my marriage will stand this strain.
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