Posted by Katy's Mom on July 4, 2006, at 16:39:06
It will 3 years on July 27th that our 19 year old daughter Katy was killed in a road rage accident. I cannot tell you how hard it is to live with this grief. 3 years feels like 3 very long days. I feel I have grown as a person since her death, perhaps because the reality of death is right infront of me. I wonder if I'll ever feel that joy again. We have other children and I think I'm a good mother to all of them but that hole is so definitely difficult. I've been on Effexor XR since the day after she was killed. I still would go to the pitts of Hell so my P-Doc prescribed Lamictal and said I was BPII. The Lamictal has definitely helped. My biggest surprise was to learn that there were others who have lost more than me. Only daughter, only child, two children etc. I lost my buddy and life will never be the same but I'm beginning to think if I can improve on myself and make something good come from this then when I do meet up with my Katy she'll be even more proud of me.
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