Posted by Ivan MIchael on May 12, 2004, at 10:07:39
In reply to Re: it's a bad day: here's the real me » Ivan Michael, posted by Fallen4MyT on May 11, 2004, at 22:13:42
thankyou. you guys mean so much to me. i feel better today so i don't think i'll blow up again. lol. it's just that i think i'm getting worse. i get mad at my g/f and my friends, and my parents all the time, and strangers, and myself for being this way. most of the time i get upset and then feel horrible about it and put myself down even more. i've always tried to be peaceful too, but when kids openlie come up to you and try to start a fight, 2 guys have so far, i don't want to beat the crap outa them, i wanna beat them down to the ground, throw them over the rail of the steps, and slit their throat with a pair of scissors. i know that i shouldn't think stuff like that and i almost did push a kid over the rail the other day but stopped myself just in time. i hope that i never do go too far. well i'll rap this up. i still am seeing a counselor and i'll tell him how i feel, even though i've lied about it before. thanks for the hugs. my dark side needs it. lotsa hugs back. later. and thanks for being here. :)
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