Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 9:01:34
In reply to Always unsure, posted by coley on August 15, 2005, at 2:28:46
Welcome Coley, Im new here too and very confused and desperately want to keep self medicating but it was getting me into so much trouble I had to stop and face the core issues. I am seeing a therapist and trying out some meds. Its been about a month now and I still dont know what I have ( depression and anxiety i believe). But the one thing that is helping me is the therapy>
Its frightening to finally face the issues that have made you self medicate for so many years but for me it was more frightening to wake up in the lockup after a night on coke and whiskey last month. I am a 40 year old female who buried the traumtic childhood issues that resulted in my self destructive behaviour. Now that i understand that i feel that i know myself a lot better and realize that i have to face it in order to change. It scares the hell out me to think what if i cant function and have a breakdown as a result of all this memory resurfaceing and i often want to just put it all back inside and continue getting drunk. If you dont already have a therapist to help you i strongly recommend finding one.
These boards are very helpful ( and very addicting too). I wish you luck and i understand your concerns. Just keep exploring and you will see that you are not alone.
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