Posted by karen_kay on March 15, 2007, at 6:59:50
In reply to Bi-polar and ADD, but doing ok :), posted by runamuck on March 12, 2007, at 21:29:44
i'm 28 (or so i've been told. don't tell me you were born on july 2 too! that woulld jsut be too creepy for words) too. well, i think i am. i can't ever remember. i do know that i'm getting up there. but, i don't mind, as i'm married to practically a minor (seriously, when we first got married he was begging me to go buy him beer). he's now 22, so he can buy his own booze and mine as well (though with the meds, i don't guzzle gin and bourbon quite like i used to. it's coming up summer time though, so i'll have to be drinking some beer soon, can't miss out on that tradition, yard work, tanning, beer.).
yeah, i started teh whole med routine at about 19. ad (antidepressants, you'll learn the lingo quick around here, but i must warn you, there's a poster round here called all done. she's a horrible tramp, but i call her ad as well, not to be confused with paxil, zoloft, but she does make the body weak, jsut as they do. soemtimes she even gives me stomach cramps as they do :) actually i'm quite fond of her or i'd never say such things, but don't ever let on like i like her or i'll deny i even know you :)
but, i've found crack helps me cope the best :) just kidding of course. i'm on topamax and klonopin. the baby at the top of the page when you open up the screen is my duckie, isn't he the cutest duckie ever?
i jsut recently went through the strangest manic episode ever. anger, lots of anger towards mr kk (i'm married, i think this is our 2 year coming up april 1) everything's proper here, i am a lady. first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes kk with baby carriage. then came depression, then came mania, then came dr's with ideas for sania!
so, i'm getting back to normal, whatever that is....
about adderal: can i ahve some?
about abilify, lamictal and wellbutrin: keep theat horrid stuff away from me! that stuff made me freak out! now, some celexa gives me a creepy buzz, same with (oh now, what's it called....lexapro. makes me manic everytime. and, if you take enough paxil, yoru wallls will bend. some idiot told me that one time and i fell for it, twice! naive is my middle name. ok, kay is my middle name but naive should ahve been).
about losing jobs: that sucks. especially if you really liked them too. but, i tend to think of it this way. they weren't meant to be. right now is your chance to find what's right for you (med wise and otherwise). then, you'll be able to fidn what you're meant to do. worry about that after you get your meds starightened out and don't give yourself a hard time about the details in between. shoot, i wasted half my college life withdrawing. oh weelll, poop happens, right?
oh, i was on resperdal too, but it made me a zombie. i'm off it right now.
it's a tough prccess findign what works. and the side effects suck. but, it's worth it in the end. the topamax makes me dumber than a box of rocks (and trust me, smarts ain't my gift anyway :). makes me unable to eat. and my face just goes numb, like i've had a stroke or something, same with all my other body arts. and i confuse letters often (doesn't work well when i was taking german classes). but, i take the good with the bad, as it keeps me from going clear off the deep end and chewing off my feet or running through town naked with a sign saying 'please, someone call me big poppa'. that's what's important, as i wouldn't want to explain any of those things to my duckie when he gets older, you know?
i hope you enjoy babble. i swear, one person i say 'i've been here for months' another person i say 'i've been here for 5 years'. it's hard for me, as i have no concept of time. i'll look through and find precisely how long i have been here.
but, it's really been helpful to me. to know that people listen (or at least they pretend to :)
it's helpful to know that people care. it's helpful to know i'm not alone. and i'm not the only one who like to be called big poppa :)take care and i usually post on social, so feel free to wonder around the boards and fidn the ones that suit you. if i see you on social i'll say hey and i talk to just about anyone (againa, like i said that all done character. don't tell her anything. she blabs too much. she can't keep a secret anyway.)
take care dear,
kk
poster:karen_kay
thread:740541
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/newbs/20061013/msgs/741194.html