Posted by Penny on June 18, 2002, at 16:20:38
In reply to Intensive outpatient program, posted by Penny on June 3, 2002, at 9:47:21
Well, I started the program. Kinda interesting, though as you all can probably imagine, we're not exactly a fun-loving group of individuals! The program consists of group therapy for about an hour and a half and then a planning session where we plan for our week, weekend, whatever the case may be. I like the therapist who runs the group as she reminds me of my other therapist. Both are New Yorkers of Italian descent and both 'tell it like it is,' which I think is good.
I asked the group therapist how long I'd be doing this, and she said probably, judging from how I sounded in group yesterday, for the full four weeks. I think it will take me even longer, considering how deeply ingrained my emotional problems are. I think some folks have been in there longer than the 'usual' 2-4 weeks. So, we'll see.
On another note, I have a second interview next Wednesday for the job in Chapel Hill. Part of me hopes I get it, and part is terrified b/c it would mean leaving my therapist. Not that that wouldn't happen eventually anyway, but it really stresses me out. She told me to not think about it right now as we can deal with that when it comes time, but it's hard not to. The thought of leaving her...I just don't know.
And the suicidal thoughts are ever present. My pdoc is concerned that it is taking so long for the meds to give me some relief and even pointed out that they can only do so much with the stress I'm under. I suppose he's right. I'm just ready for my job to be over (2 weeks) so I can de-stress somewhat. Of course, that brings on more financial issues....
Thanks to all of you for your kind words. I appreciate it!
Penny
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