Posted by Dinah on June 14, 2003, at 3:05:32
In reply to Re: Been reading up on DID/MPD, posted by deirdrehbrt on June 13, 2003, at 23:59:52
You are probably far wiser than I. I always want to pin things down. Find *the* answer. And so I probably read far too many things and from the therapist's perspective.
So far the only thing I've read that's helped is "The Myth of Sanity" since parts of that book really fit what I experience.
The rest of the literature either frightens me or makes me feel ashamed. I worry obsessively over whether my therapist is laughing at me. Or I do when I'm not with him. I don't feel laughter or disdain from him when I'm with him.
I just have that darn obsessive need to understand. It served me well with my OCD, but less well with my dissociative traits. :(
Perhaps I should just stop reading. Stop looking for the magic key. Start trusting my therapist a bit more instead of trying to guess where he's going with me, or what his motivations for each sentence are. Nawwwwwww. Don't think I can do that. Somewhere out there must be that magic key that will make everything make sense. :)
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