Posted by MizDazee on June 21, 2003, at 3:41:39
I just received a prescription for Remeron yesterday. I've spent some time reading about it on-line but not from actual users till I found this site.
Four years into treatment, I've yet to find a mood stabilizer that doesn't cause SERIOUS problems concerning mental functioning--so I stop them and end up back in the hospital. It's something that increases over time (I've tried so many!) until I can't spell at a 3rd-grade level, can't remember names, and finally can't finish a thought or sentence. I get so dumb I'm totally embarrassed, loathe myself, and ultimately get pissed and stop cold turkey one day because the future seems so hopeless. Is that the quality of life I'm to settle for?
Considering some of the "fog" issues I'm reading here, I don't see how this med's going to be any different. I already feel brain-damaged and am scared to death to try another drug that reportedly can cause fogginess, confusion, and zombie-like reactions. (I'm already on Wellbutrin, Lamictal, and 3 different sleep meds that have to be alternated to work anymore.) It seems I must choose between rappid cycling but still being able to function mentally, or being mood-controlled and turning into an Alzheimers patient in short time. And what's the point of living like that?
I'd appreciate anybody's advice/help. Thanks loads.
poster:MizDazee
thread:235767
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