Posted by Adia on September 30, 2003, at 11:27:32
In reply to Re: Trust - A therapy homework » Adia, posted by Dinah on September 29, 2003, at 21:43:47
Hi Dinah,
You are so very welcome...
I do think that it works in some cases, to be open about your feelings..with a few close friends. It is so rewarding to be able to have a friendship where you can be yourself totally and open your heart. I have that with one or two friends.
Thank you for saying that was brave! I felt I had no choice, because my trust issues do show...Thanks for asking about how things are going with my therapist..I feel much safer in the relationship with her, and I feel she wants the best for me and wants to help me open up so we can work together..but I still feel lost..I told her the last time that I wanted to leave knowing and feeling that I am heading somewhere and I am not lost, and that I wanted to find hope and feel that I can make progress somehow, and she said I have to realize that I can do it...more than just asking if she thinks I can. That I have to take courage and stop protecting myself so much and just let myself share..
I have tried to be really there in the last 2 sessions we've had, and I am trying to at least tell her what's happening or what I'm feeling, but I still can't find the way to just let go and talk and tell her what I feel or what I want to share...She wants me to talk as the adult me, feeling I have the right to talk about my feelings and share and be there..and not so from the little girl that gets all scared and feels this urgency of feeling hopeful and not so lost and can't say anything because the urgency and hopelessness inside is overwhelming.
My t says I give her the titles of things but I don't go deep and I run away...but she says she feels me trying harder now..and I do believe that if I am able to talk more, and give more of myself, she will guide me through and work with me..I just feel a little lost cause it is so hard..but I do feel safer and I feel we're working together and that what happened actually helped us and now I feel her closer, I felt hopeful last time I saw her and that was important for me...
I am counting the days and hours till next friday..it gets so hard in-between sessions.
Thank you for asking and being here...
I love reading what you share and it's so nice to be here...
Thanks again!!
I wish you deep sharing and closeness with your close friends :-)
all the best,
adia.> Thank *you* for sharing that, Adia. It really helps to know that someone has done what my therapist suggested and it worked out for them.
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> It was enormously brave of you to do that.
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> How are things going with your therapist? I have often thought of you and your therapist lately. I've really admired your courage in dealing with that as well. I probably would have gotten all mulish and made things worse. So I hope it's working out for you.
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