Posted by KindGirl on February 17, 2004, at 13:58:29
In reply to Problems with therapist?, posted by pixel on February 17, 2004, at 13:09:56
Hey Pixel
If you read my post above you will know that I am having the world's worst day today...seriously....so I will try give you what I think because I know when you throw a post out there you really want to know someone hears you and reads you. I hear you and I read you.I think that this whole "therapy" thing..."recovery" is excruciating. Plain and simple. Removing the shields and defenses from the pain and letting it all come out...it is literally hell on earth....and to do this in front of someone else can feel so humiliating and shameful. At least that is MY experience.
I don't like hearing that your t. is "uncomfortable" with you...and I hate to even say that because I know how hard you have worked this year...to bond...to remember...to recover....but I think you really need a soft place to fall...a soft, consistent place...and it sounds like she is not really safe and consistent. ?????
Did you misinterpret her in any way? Are you reading more into it than that? I don't think you have, but just checking.
My t. says that we need to talk about everything...even if it is about her angering me or hurting me somehow....she needs to know.My advice on this is that you first of all talk to her about it somehow...leave her a message on her machine if that feels safer....write her a letter and mail it to her or leave it with her after your next appt....she needs to know that you are concerned with her uncomfortableness.
And you are right...you are not there to hold her hand...she is there for YOU and for YOU always, no matter how uncomfortable you make her. I am sorry this is so hard for you and I am sorry if what I say hurts you even more.
I am here and I hear you and I will listen if you want to vent some more. It just sucks sometimes, you know? Hang in there...KG
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