Posted by Penny on February 20, 2004, at 8:10:09
In reply to Re: Party for Penny!!, posted by All Done on February 19, 2004, at 22:02:43
I'm back all - sorry I missed my own party!!!
I woke up Wed. morning with some kind of stomach thing, so I have been in bed and not online for two days. I'm back at work today, though not sure if I'll stay all day or not.
But anyway...thanks for the party! Tho' I'm not sure my phone session deserved a party...
I went to therapy last night and told her that I couldn't remember everything I wanted to from our phone session. She said that's how therapy works, and summarized some of what we discussed. And I still haven't heard from my pdoc, but have an agreement with my T that I will still page him if needed (i.e. if there's a med-related problem) but not to talk about last Friday's session. I see him again on March 5, at which time I will decide whether or not to discuss all of this with him.
I told her last night that part of me still wants to cancel. I'm not going to (I guess?) but part of me still wants to. But the reality is, I want to cancel and have him not let me cancel. But the better thing to do is to tell him that's what I want.
My T and I talked about the fuzzy boundaries between my sessions with my pdoc and therapy. I told her that if he really wanted to discourage transference, he should stick with 15 min. med-checks, like many other docs. I said that even though we spend part of my 45-60 min sessions talking about college basketball, and part of it talking about the factual med stuff, part of it is me telling him about what's going on. Even though I don't go into as much detail as in therapy, and even tho' he doesn't give me as much feedback as I get in therapy, there's still an essence of the same. And my T agreed. She said he, b/c of the way he chooses to practice - actually getting to really know his patients - walks a fine line between not actually doing therapy and what he does. And, it means that transference is going to occur in some cases, whether he encourages it or not. No kidding.
Anyway, we talked about other things too. Lots of fodder for future sessions, I guess. :-b
Jeez...
But, again - thanks for all of the support!!!
P
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