Posted by bell_75 on February 26, 2004, at 3:55:33
In reply to termination and wanting to stay unhappy, posted by QuietHeart on February 24, 2004, at 23:32:19
I, like others here, totally understand what you mean and how you feel by wanting to stay unhappy in order to keep the therapy relationship going.
I have been in therapy for nearly 11 months and i feel my therapist believes this is long enough. That I have the skills needed to deal with depression on my own (he is a CBT therapist).
At this very moment, I'm worried that my T is seeing me improving and that I'm coming along each week with only trivial things and at times its somewhat just like I drop by for a chat not therapy. During the week when i dont see him i think of what to tell him about my week and when it comes time to see him i notice i generally focus on the bad (depressing) rather than the good as to not give the impression things are much better.
Its true, therapy is a comfort/safety zone.
I've never felt so secure and comforted by a relationship before.
All my life I've had issues with seperation anxiety. I was very clinging as a child and moreso clingy emotionally as an adult.
When my first therapist left I cried even though i had only been seeing her for a few months. My current therapist saw me that day of our last session as that was when i was introduced to him. I think he probably knows that thats what its going to be like when i finish therapy with him. Even worse! I'm closer to him and I really really dont want to leave therapy.
I wish all us here on psycho-babble could get together and have post-therapy therapy with each other...talk about our feelings and just offer the support in an offline environment. Alas, we're a worldwide conglomerate of therapy patients alike. This message board is still great though.If theres anything I can say to you here is that...you're not alone. *hugs* theres plenty of people here that know and empathise with what you're feeling.
:) Stay strong and keep in touch.
~Bell
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