Posted by terrics on March 7, 2004, at 15:20:08
In reply to Re: It does help, but brings up another ??, posted by Apperceptor on March 7, 2004, at 14:45:04
I was given that dx. with one obvious criteria. I cried for hrs and hrs. after. I am in the medical field and knew what it meant. Up to that point I was always dxd as depressed. It is not a kind thing to tell someone. It is like saying,
you are the dregs of the psychologically ill.So here it is. The one criteria, and probably the most defining of BPD. I cut. Along with this I am running into a severe problem where I want to cut down to organs. This is something new. I used to just run the razor over my skin to cause bleeding. Now I keep running the blade over the same incision to make it straight and deep. It has become a driving urge. My abdomen looks like a mess right now from all the practice. This unfortunately is gory, but I would like to hold the slimy sticky insides in my hands. I think something has gotten out of control. I would like to understand why someone would do this. Just a little side note; I cut when I was nine after my father died. I had NO idea about cutting then and often wonder how such a thing can start without a prompt. terrics p.s. I keep this secret well. So it is good to be able to share it anonymously.
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