Posted by Raindancer on March 13, 2004, at 17:10:37
In reply to Raindancer - How Are you?, posted by DaisyM on March 13, 2004, at 14:47:02
Dear Daisy, thanks so much for asking and for your previous post. Your thoughts and words gave me a lot of comfort. I haven't taken any meds for some time but had 30mg Seroxat (Paxil?) yesterday and 20mg today just to stop being a jibbering wreck and breaking down all the time and this has helped but I daren't think too much. The trouble is I came to my T with attachment problems (to someone else) and although I have made a lot of progress in other directions in therapy, this is still my stumbling block. Also I have been quite depressed since the deaths of my father and uncle last year (My T had already suggested I go back on meds for this).
He does think I'm ready. He isn't actually leaving, just changing the nature of his work and I know will give me all the support he can. No dates fixed yet but I think it will be quite soon. Meanwhile I have to wait 5 weeks to see him again. When I look at it logically I know I'm really lucky because he is caring, but I have such a terror of losing him I am just overwhelmed with grief.
I have very little confidence but have achieved quite a lot (on my T training course) but it's getting harder and I really need him beside me.However I will have to face up to it somehow and as you say, it is a process.
Thank you so much for the flowwers and the cookies - I feel asa though you really gave them to me. You have been just great all along andf I really value your friendship.
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