Posted by karen_kay on April 27, 2004, at 17:44:09
In reply to How was group, Karen?, posted by Dinah on April 27, 2004, at 12:53:10
dinah, you little... :)
thank you for asking dear. i showed up. no one else did. then, 10 minutes late, someone else did. we focused on him. i'm staying distant because i don't want to share that i have problems. or perhaps i don't want to waste time with mine? i'm not sure really, at this point... maybe i'm 'punishing' bubba? but i doubt that. i only chime in when called on. and then, i only mimic what i think i should say depending on who's in the room.. strange, isn't it?
bubba did ask things like 'what was your first impression of me when you first met me?' and i said 'you seemed like a little boy in big boy's clothing.'
i did notice one thing though. the member who showed up today told his major, but said he doesn't mention it because of the possible connotation involved (religious studies to become a minister), as in people may feel the need to edit or hold back in his presence. i said i wouldn't, but also said i had a new sense of respect for him for that. he started about how people shouldn't respect ministers because they are people too, etc. but, i started thinking that he didn't realize i didn't mean because he's studying to be a minister, only because he has faith in something. i just didn't say anything either. i tend to think that people can read my mind, or at least know precisely what i mean when i say something rather ambiguous or misleading.... i do that often. perhaps i could change it, but I DON'T WANT TO.. People should change around me darn it!!!! :( i shouldn't have to say extra words to prove my point, as that makes it sound like i'm changing my opinion or view so as to not upset them, right??? oh, did i mention i think too much? :)
poster:karen_kay
thread:340623
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