Posted by shadows721 on April 29, 2004, at 13:31:03
In reply to Depressed- it's time to give up, posted by Poet on April 29, 2004, at 11:15:21
Poet,
You are beating yourself up with your own thoughts and comments to yourself. Look at this.
"No one has ever wanted me, no one ever will"
NO ONE... This is not true. No one on in your whole life or on this planet would want you? This is not a true stmt. NO ONE EVER WILL.... Come on here, You can tell the future too. This is not so.
"My husband doesn't need me, I'm useless, now I can't even help pay the mortgage."
This is a really false stmt. It sounds like he needs you more than ever now. How are you totally useless? Yesterday, I met a woman in an drug store that barked and shook and worked. She wasn't useless and neither are you.
"I just want to binge and binge until I burst, purge and binge again. Maybe I'll choke to death, that would solve everything." How is binging getting rid of all this negative thinking? Choking to death would solve everthing?
This is totally illogical thinking that is feed by depression. You know this. It's one thing to be depressed, but you are telling yourself the worst.
Your husband is there still, so he must still want you. Your bases of living shouldn't be him anyway. So, this job didn't work out. There are others out there. This isn't the only one out there. You may find one that was way better than this. How will you find out if you are just eating ice cream hoping to die.?
Change your thinking - You are in a new home. Wow, that's wonderful. you are going to have time off to decorate it and look for a new job. Push the tissues aside and get the help wanted ads out. You have some living to do Poet. Stop getting in the way of progress.
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