Posted by Ivan Michael on May 21, 2004, at 10:30:25
In reply to Obsessive Compulsive Personality, posted by Questionmark on May 13, 2004, at 9:36:40
i am prettie sure that i do. i started counceling about nov, i think. well i haven't been completelie honest with him...so...um...yea i still don't reallie know what is wrong with me because he can't give a diagnosis since i don't tell him everiething. i am a strange person though. i have been places that, i hope, no one else has ever been. i have also been places where others have and that is why they have problems. the problem is, i was never physicallie there. when i hear a storie or situation in which there is violence, especiallie rape, i start to breath heavie and i can see hear feel smell everiedetail. sometimes it's like i'm watching the event. sometimes it's like i'm the person being attacked. once or twice, i've seen it from the attackers eyes. i hate when it happens this way. i am filled with guilt and sorrow a afterwards. but back to OCD. i forgive but never forget. at anie moment, my mind flashes back to a bad event. out of nowhere, i will have a flashback to when my girlfriend hurt me, or this morning with my parents, or just aniething that willl bring me down. this is why i want to cut. it makes me forget. my mind bgoes blank. for a minute, i stop thinking and start bleeding. so i think i need to talk to my councelor about this. i don't know when i'm gonna see him next. o well. and as you can see, i ramble. so i guess you wanted help that i can't give. i need help with it too. and i know of several types of this dissorder. maybe someone else can help you. sorrie.
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