Posted by toomuchpain on July 14, 2004, at 23:06:33
hey all i kno it has been awhile .. i havent posted cus the last time i posted i didnt get much response and sorta kinda got upset about that but i am over it now and back to try again with another problem ...
ok my former t is a male and u guys know much about him and that sitution.... my new therapist is a women ... i am havin a huge problem openin up to her ,, ic ant seem to say anythin about how feel or what i need out of therpy all i can say is that i dont like u and want my old t back even though that is now possiable ..... she gets mad and sayd u kno that cant happen so stop wanting it ... i cant help help what the heart wants cus as all of u kno the heart wants what the heart wants .... i broke down and called my former t while blood was runnin down my arm due to cuttin intensly ... he did calm me and down and got me to stop cuttin which i am thankful for!!! he told me he still cared and that no matter what he will be here for me and that he is willin to speak to me in person ...which i really want to do cus with out him i am miserable!!!!
after everything i went through because him .. i shouldnt be yearning for him and cryin for him.. when he picked up his phone it seem to all fade away.. all my emotion just rushed from horriably wantin to die to so so so happy bein alive feelin cared about again ... i guess i really dont understand what is going on can anyone else try to see what is going on and give me some advice or insight
poster:toomuchpain
thread:366344
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