Posted by B2chica on July 18, 2004, at 14:17:31
In reply to Re: Where are you Shadows721??, posted by shadows721 on July 18, 2004, at 13:55:49
>>I went tubing down a river. It was really different.
That sounds AWESOME! and the play and zoo and all that? WOW, i'm impressed. you did Wonderful for yourself S!
>>I didn't really know how to steer my tube, so I kept hitting logs in the river.
-sorry, but (heheehehe) you made me giggle. i'm picturing this-and man if that wouldn't be me doing the same!
>>Well, nobody knows Shadows that well including me.
it's funny you say this. My biggest saying is "the biggest mistake a person will EVER make is to assume to know who i am!" and i MEAN that. partly because i change often, and partly because i have SO MANY sides to me how could they? (especially when i don't let them in)
(and i think i agree in that even i don't know completely what i'm all about-i guess that's why i'm seeing a T right?)>>Out of no where I told the hubby, "I am 50% of your wife and I have my rights!" My hubby said, "What?!" I still don't know why or what that means. Weird. But, that's me.
That is very interesting. For some reason when i read this it's like i knew exactly what you meant (about the 50% part) but now...i can't remember what i was thinking?? on the other hand do you have DID? could this be just a part of you saying this?
>>Oh, I am so glad you have a doc you really like. That is sooooooooo important.-ya, i just wish he was my T and not my GP (well, no cuz i love him being my GP...)but i want him to be both! I even told him about my restricting lately. He was so supportive (just like a doctor) he said he was just worried about my electrolytes and if i'd try to drink like gatorade or something. but at the end he said "ok, here's your assignment. you need to talk to your T about the restricting, your body image, and your trust issues..." i just can't resist his little smirk and that caring face. he's just so gentle it's Incredible! so i will tell my T but not for me, not for my T...but for my GP :^P
>>Are they trying to get you back in touch with your body in relation to the cutting? If your body had a voice, what would it say about what you are doing to it? Remember, it has it's right's too.
-wow, S. this just sounds so insightful! Not yet, but it just seems like i never have enough time during my sessions to really get much out of them??? to answer you? i think my body would just scream-a blood curtaling scream. a scream of pain, anger, hurt, need, of feeling lost, and a scream of LISTEN TO ME!!!!
good thing is that i haven't cut in about 2? 21/2 weeks? something like that. but i was on that lovely uphill clime for h-mania so who knows when i fall back down. i typically do the D-M-I (depression, mania then level)where i think most do the M-D-I. so i'm guessing i'm level right now. i feel that way anyway.
ooops sorry this became a short novel.
talk to you later.
Good to hear from you Shadows.
Love
B2c.
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