Posted by Susan47 on September 13, 2004, at 11:53:28
On the social board there was an issue recently about a video clip in class and being triggered. Can someone please explain to me exactly what "trigger" means on the boards?
In a class recently (medicatl terminology) I left because I read about a medication I'm taking and suddenly realized that many of my behaviours were related not to my depression, perhaps not even to my "therapy", but to my medication. I was angry and upset with my therapist and crying all over the halls. My instructor and a bunch of classmates came out after class (it was near the end anyway) and were all really concerned, although I hadn't been crying when I left and I'm surprised anybody even caught on that I was upset. I mean, my crying in the halls was fairly quiet. So being still driven by anxiety and anger, I told my instructor about my depression and medications and being treated irresponsibly by my "therapist". She was very understanding and kind but I still feel like I exposed myself in a risky way. I had no idea at all that the innocent little Compendium of Pharmaceuticals could have that effect on me. It's a bit frightening to think that these kinds of reactions await me in RL, especially since I'm living with my childhood now without therapy. Jesus. Okay, enough self-pity already. I had to just get it out, sorry. And I want to work in a hospital setting. Am I nuts?
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