Posted by crushedout on January 17, 2005, at 15:50:55
In reply to Re: I've drafted an email, will try not to send » crushedout, posted by 10derheart on January 17, 2005, at 14:38:41
10der,thank you for your amazing, long, thoughtful post. (you *do not* ramble. you make sense and you write beautifully. i love the part about going out in the street and demanding intimacy at the top of our lungs. made me chuckle.)
i have to say that i feel so hopeless about ever having that kind of intimacy with anyone ever again. i don't know what has caused this hopelessness in me, but it's be growing for a long time. it's pretty terrifying, because without hope for that, why bother living? it really is kind of the point of life.
it has nothing to do with my capabilities, either. i've never (oddly enough) had any doubts about my ability to be intimate. (i think not, anyway.) i'm darn good at it, and i love taking risks, unlike many people. the hard part is finding the right person to join me for the ride. :( and i'm not sure why -- i have a lot of good qualities, i swear!
anyway, babble does help with that, an awful lot, although it's not a substitute for real live people.
thanks, 10der. it's nice having you as a new babblefriend.
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