Posted by alexandra_k on January 24, 2005, at 18:43:50
In reply to Re: t2 and the light (possible trigger) » littleone, posted by alexandra_k on January 24, 2005, at 16:02:31
Self soothing. I have heard that self soothing is the answer. Because I have to do that to feel better. But sometimes that is just impossible. The lense through which I see the world cannot change.
If I am around people at times like this then I am an absolute terror. I suck everything out of them. I am greedy and it does not really help me feel any better anyway.
So that is when I isolate myself. Because I don't see what needs to be done.
I do not.
It hurts people when they want to help me and they cannot. But they cannot because the problem isn't in the present it is in the past. Because they were not there then. Nobody was there then. Not when I really needed them and they could have done something. Nobody was there then and it is too late now.It is too late.
I was too soon.
I am still too soon.
I live in the past.
The memories.
I cannot escape them
Round and round.If you talk about it grieve about it then is it supposed to go away? To get better?
I don't even know how this is supposed to go.
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