Posted by Pfinstegg on January 27, 2005, at 22:33:58
In reply to Re: Who me? I don't have an *unconscious* mind! » Pfinstegg, posted by daisym on January 27, 2005, at 21:13:38
Hi Daisy - always good to hear from you. It's so hard to be honest with these powerful feelings- most of all the fear and rage, but also the sadness of having something so awful happen. I am still going five days a week (entire salary!); he pretty much works just with PTSD and abuse, and really likes to see people every day if it's humanly possible. There is something wonderful about being able to go every day - it really does help me take more chances with being more open and unguarded. No matter how stressful a session is, he's right there the next day, always looking like he's glad to see me, and ready to listen to everything. I'm so dependent, too, as well as being very insecurely attached, so every day is just right!
I've gone just about two years, and really have only begun to notice that I'm getting better in the last few months. He has told me that he expects that I'll probably need to come daily for at least a total of five years, maybe more. Then, I can come whenever I feel I need to. With him, apparently nobody needs to face a permanent termination. I think that's so encouraging; he must have enough experience and confidence in what he does that he knows the time can come when his patients can gradually move out on their own without a lot of stress or loss.
The art therapy is totally amazing- genuinely unconscious things keep getting onto the paper, clay, etc. There are anatomically correct dolls if I want to use them (haven't yet). Yesterday, we spent some time playing Winnicot's "squiggle" game, because she wanted to do something interactive with me- to help me not feel so alone with everything which is coming up. But it's so intense, once every two weeks is about as much as I can handle.
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