Posted by frida on February 15, 2005, at 19:10:21
In reply to My T bought me flowers....but I wouldn't take them, posted by shrinking violet on February 15, 2005, at 18:01:28
Hi,
I haven't posted much here, I am sort of new, but I wanted to reach out to you and tell you that I've struggled with the same, I still do. :-( and my T is very patient..but I feel really bad because I can't talk. I can write hours and hours and feel urgency to go to my session and see my T, cry, let go, talk..but once I sit there, I freeze totally, I can't say anything about how I truly feel, I can't talk about my feelings, I can't go deeply into what I feel. The feeling afterwards is terribly painful. I walk out the door and sometimes I can't stop crying thinking that I missed another chance to let go and find relief and share, I do write to her, but of course it is not the same, though at least she has a way to find out what's in my heart.
I would encourage you to show her your post or write to her telling her how you felt, so the feelings don't stay inside of you.
My T always tell me that of course I'll feel alone and scared inside if I stay with everything inside of me and don't give words. Sometimes I manage to give her the basic information but that isn't relieving enough.
I would really encourage you to share your post with your T. She seems to truly care about you, it would bring you closer if she could know what's in your heart...
I don't know why talking is so hard for some of us.. :-( My T is encouraging me to try to start small..maybe try talking about something easier, a movie, book, whatever...without setting so hard expectations, and just trying to feel safe and build trust...
I think sharing your post would help you and your T.
I think it is so sweet that she bought you flowers :-)wishing you the best of luck,
Frida.
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