Posted by TamaraJ on February 23, 2005, at 13:34:15
In reply to ((((Tamara)))), posted by partlycloudy on February 23, 2005, at 12:09:57
Thanks Partlycloudy. I will try to take it easy. I think part of my problem has been that, in the past few months, I have been taking it too easy. When I first got sick, I was pushing myself - have to get better - exercise, socialize, keep busy, get out. Now it seems I have stopped putting pressure on myself, and have gone from one extreme to another. I have always been hyper, going non-stop, and that was a way of life I was comfortable with. Now, can I find a happy medium? I guess I will have to try. I am just glad that I won't have to deal with staff anymore (that sounds so mean). I love my staff, but they were, at times, a demanding lot. And, I just couldn't turn them away, even when I had urgencies, demands and deadlines from the bosses to deal with, etc. Some days it would get so bad, there would be four or five people in my office at one time all wanting a piece of me. My lunch would sit uneaten most days until 4 or 5 in the afternoon, and I would finally have about an hour between 5:30 and 6:30 when I had some time to myself. I know my pattern. Unless I take steps now to change it, within months I will be back to my old ways of putting everybody ahead of me. Sorry for the rant! And, thanks for listening. And, I am glad to hear that things are getting better for you as the days go by. I know you were struggling greatly for a while. I hope things only continue to improve. My thoughts are with you Partlycloudy.
Tamara
> Take it very easy on yourself - you will be tired just from being not at home. I bet you're the kind of person who holds yourself to standards much higher than anyone you work for does. Paving the way beforehand with your responsibilities and hour works adjusted was a great idea. Part of what I found difficult about my return to work was that nothing had changed within the job. I had to make the changes within myself as to how I responded to the things that would set me off before. I'm better at it every day.
> Also I found that it was difficult to maintain my concentration for the first few weeks, so I brought a white noise machine in to keep the auditory distractions down.
> take good care,
> pc
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